Originally written 4/28/12
Today marks the third year of my "eye situation." Its been a long road to say the least. During this time I've learned a lot about myself, others, but most of all I've learned a lot about God. I've had issues with my eyes for 20 plus years but NEVER did I ever imagine waking up one morning and not being able to see, talk about scary! I asked for wholeness, purpose, and destiny but had no idea of all the baggage that stood in the way. In the beginning I fought it but in surrendering to His process, God has delivered my from tremendous pain, guilt, regret, shame etc. It was time for the "real" Stephanie to surface and I believe this what it took. No, I'm not perfect but I have grown in love, patience, temperament, forgiveness. Yes the fruits of the spirit are manifesting PRAISE GOD!
What I Know for Sure~when you ask God for something, you don't get to choose the route He takes you, just be ready for the ride. You can't worry about opinions and judgements from people, let them do what they do. During the process things can, and probably will, get very embarrassing and heartbreaking but DON'T GIVE UP! The sooner you get started the sooner you'll get to the other side. When it seems like all hell has broken loose and no one understands, God is still working His plan. Yes, there will still be moments of doubt, fear, anger, or what have you but you can move past it with grace. Feel the feelings but don't stay there. Get back to the business at hand. There's a future and a purpose waiting to be fulfilled and ONLY YOU can do it!
I'm not completely there but I do have a better idea of who I am and why I'm here. I'm a woman of FAITH, DESTINY, PEACE and LOVE! Now I no longer ask "why did I go through this?" But "WHY DID I SURVIVE IT?"
What I Know for Sure~when you ask God for something, you don't get to choose the route He takes you, just be ready for the ride. You can't worry about opinions and judgements from people, let them do what they do. During the process things can, and probably will, get very embarrassing and heartbreaking but DON'T GIVE UP! The sooner you get started the sooner you'll get to the other side. When it seems like all hell has broken loose and no one understands, God is still working His plan. Yes, there will still be moments of doubt, fear, anger, or what have you but you can move past it with grace. Feel the feelings but don't stay there. Get back to the business at hand. There's a future and a purpose waiting to be fulfilled and ONLY YOU can do it!
I'm not completely there but I do have a better idea of who I am and why I'm here. I'm a woman of FAITH, DESTINY, PEACE and LOVE! Now I no longer ask "why did I go through this?" But "WHY DID I SURVIVE IT?"
SR Howard on healing is a process
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